I once read "to live content with small means-to seek elegance rather luxury, refinement rather than fashion, to be worthy, not respectable, and wealthy not rich, to study hard, think quietly, talk gently, act frankly, to listen to the stars and birds, to babes and sages, with open heart, to bear cheerfully, do all bravely, await occasions, hurry never-in a word let the unbidden and unconscious grow up with the common."

The last couple of weeks have been so difficult to get through. The body is an amazing piece of life. You seem to be happy one moment and sad the next. I try hard to vitamins, herbs, and in not eating process food. However in a blink of an eye my body was in jeopardy. After seeing the MD, he sent me to the ER at Toledo Hospital. My toes were purple, swollen, and hurt while walking. Just from one day to the next, my toes on both feet were close to being amputated. I fretted about every moment after that, afraid that other clots were going to break and i would end up dead.
Why?
I cannot speak about others, but since my poly ( my pet name for polymyostsis) I have spent much effort to find happiness. Chasing that proverbial butterfly, while spending very little time on developing a character that will in itself, given any reasonable odds, make for happiness. No one is happy unless he/she is reasonably well satisfied with himself, so the quest for tranquility must begin with self-examination. Most time though, we do not like what we see. Further with this searching we come to see that each of us are unique and whose development alone can bring satisfaction. Each has a different butterfly. What works for one may not work for some one else
The ingredients of happiness are so simple that we might miss them. Happiness comes from within and rest most securely on simple goodness and a clear conscience. Selfishnesm is it's enemy. To make another happy is to be happy with one's self. It is quiet, seldom found for long in crowds, most easily won in a moment of solitude and reflection. It cannot be bought;indeed money has very little to do with it.
No matter what we face, in these dark moments of illness, we need to be happy with our selves. None of us are perfect and may find parts of our history that might darken it further. Thus with this mediation, self searching, just know, your peace you are searching for is there. Only you can do it for yourself.
With a wink and a nod-HeWal